Human Being

I just kind of tired. Tired of becoming myself. Actually there are so many things that I should be grateful for, but everything seems grey this time. I don't know whether it is because my un-fit body or just the feeling that suddenly comes as human. I just need...rest. I just need to rethink my goals in life. I lost. Lost in somewhere which I don't familiar with.Withstanding I just can't tell to others what my problems are. I just want to talk to my creator, but I just lost so far, I feel. 

My future can be seen this time. I see the two roads just face me in a quandary. My choice will be my fate. It is not about excel in something or the inherent gift of feeling. It just.......my intuition. Human has intuition, and so do I. Hopefully I can take over this moment. I just need some turning back to make me realize, to make my spirit up without depend by others. They are just human, but I wonder why they really have the big impact in my life. I wont but I just cant. I'm tired followed by their judges, even truthfully it was and will be nothing. They cant judge me, and so do I. But as human being, we think too much about what others might think about us, do you?

Lost, cant fulfill my goals, cant catch up my inherent habit. I feel lonely. Everybody seems strange, not familiar. I wont drowning. I take the responsibility for what I do, what I speak about. What the stupid things they wanna say, just say, just do.

I need my soul back! 

p.s: sorry for disturbing your eyes to see, but that just who i am :)