maaf........

maaf maaf maaf '
bunch of sorry from my mouth to my self, why i still bring you in 'this?'
I do my promise yet, maaf. I still try in this time but sometimes my repertoire like say "I am not ready hey"
I know I know you have a lot of sources which make you feel nothing in this life. Perhaps i know how to make it better but truly in real I still can't to explore it.
And know i need a motivator or a leader to bring us in good condition. But, who will? are you? you just depend from what ME do. Help me please help me. God send me that pleaseeeeeeeeee.
Maaf. I still depended by the other i can stand by me yet ohhhhh.
I am afraid to promise again with you. Its too hard. maaf. I want to make you fell all better and would say "thanks" in the swetiest smile that I've seen. Right now, I want to throwing all the things that makes you confused, sad and doubt.
Finally, I promise.......................